Sunday, December 30, 2012

When You Want to Celebrate a Life

Sharing grace moments and pictures from the epic week of birthday celebration earlier this month.  Absolutely the best birthday ever.  And it only took me three decades to figure out how to really celebrate a life.  Thank you to all who helped me celebrate and to every single one of you who has been apart of my journey.  It's been a wild ride so far but God's been faithful through it all.  Here's to all the years still to come!


MONDAY
2052.  First day of the birthday week!
2053.  Waffles and bacon for breakfast
2054.  Flock of birds taking flight over the grocery store parking lot, then settling right back down on the roof again
2055.  Lunch date with the best-est of best friends
2056.  Her paying my way unexpectedly
2057.  Cup of chowder so full of good things I can barely fit the spoon in
2058.  Afternoon spent chatting about life, yarn projects in hand
2059.  Wrestling the knotted yarn while we wrestle the events of a week
2060.  Beautiful ruffled, sparkling, purple scarf she gives to me


2061.  Her smiling big and saying it's perfectly *me*
2063.  Me smiling happy whenever I look down, see all this joy wrapped around my neck
2063.  Driving home to the Toby Mac Christmas CD, because sometimes I really do like it loud
2064.  Pear cinnamon cider before bed


TUESDAY
2065.  Second day of the birthday week!
2066.  Plenty of work to start off the week
2067.  Tea and crochet date with another friend
2068.  Me left standing outside when the buzzer fails to buzz me in
2069.  Friend hurrying down the hall to open the door for me
2070.  How warm and cozy her place feels as soon as I walk in the door
2071.  Steeping our tea and settling in for a chat at the table
2072.  Her surprising me with a gift--I have the best of friends!
2073.  Her artwork adorning the packaging, me marveling at the beauty


2074.  Knitted scarf inside the bag--in purple, of course!


2075.  Her sweetness and generosity, the true gift
2076.  Us pulling out yarn and patterns and crochet hooks
2077.  Both of us laboring long to learn how to crochet a snowflake
2078.  Laughing, making mistakes, trying again, both of us successful at last
2079.  Geraldine the Cat talking away while she wander the house
2080.  Discovering cookies in the cookie jar right before I leave for home
2081.  That "pig chef" cookie jar and my friend translating the French for me--"cookies," of course!
2082.  Goodbye hugs and talk of "next time"
2083.  How the last page of the second gratitude journal sneaks up on me
2084.  Knowing that there is no end to the Grace, to the Love, to the God Who holds this life together.
2085.  How the second thousand has taught me this:  If I want to live, really live, I've got to keep counting for always
2086.  For change and growth and figuring things out--no matter how long or how hard the path to get there.

WEDNESDAY
2087.  Third day of the birthday week!
2088.  Too much work--even this is a gift
2089.  Strength to work extra when the hours are hard
2090.  Dinner date with the ones I've named Second Parents
2091.  Trading shoes for slippers as soon as I get to their house
2092.  Sitting by the Christmas tree while we wait for dinner to finish
2093.  Having to ask if their tree is real because it looks so natural and beautiful (it's not real!)
2094.  Homemade chicken and veggie lasagna!
2095.  The unceremonious way my Second Mom dishes up the food, us all laughing out loud
2096.  My Second Dad praying blessings over me and asking for my kitty's healing
2097.  After-dinner tea
2098.  My Second Mom hurrying me to open my gift because she can't wait any more
2099.  Handmade earrings with little silver teapots dangling at the ends--LOVE


2100.  Generous gift of Teavana gift card--because you can never really have enough tea.
2101.  My Second Mom lighting candles on the cake, my Second Dad telling her how she should do it.
2102.  Me just watching them both and laughing
2103.  Blowing out all the candles with one breath
2104.  Sneaking another piece of cake because the first one is so good
2105.  After-dessert tea
2106.  The three of us in the kitchen, me on the floor with Barney the Cat, my Second Dad sitting on the counter, and my Second Mom the only one of us in a chair
2107.  Settling back into the living room with our tea, watching the cats eye the Christmas tree
2108.  Barney climbing the tree twice--and knocking it over twice
2109.  Only one ornament breaking from the fiasco, my Second Mom shaking her finger at the naughty cat
2110.  My Second Mom sending me home with a plate full of cake
2111.  Goodbye hugs and talk of "why don't we do this more often?"
2112.  The gift of having Second Parents
2113.  The way they've loved me strong for these last two decades of a life.

THURSDAY
2114.  Better day of work than the one before
2115.  Quick nap in the afternoon to rest up for a full evening ahead
2116.  Mom walking across the parking lot to meet me, reindeer antlers perched on her head
2117.  Wandering the gift shop at Swanson's Nursery with Mom and Cousin, cup of chai in hand
2118.  Trying on hats and marveling over all the beauty here in one building
2119.  Two reindeer and a camel named Curly



2120.  How the camel doesn't bother to stand up to eat, just lies there and buries his head in food, grabbing mouthfuls to chew
2121.  Blitzen the Reindeer bellowing at me when I try to talk his picture
2122.  Walking into the Christmas tree building, that wave of evergreen scent washing right over us
2123.  Wandering rows of trees, breathing deep and running hands over branches
2124.  Cousin driving the three of us to dinner, me listening to Christmas music in the backseat
2125.  That parking spot waiting for us right across the street from the restaurant, us hardly daring to believe we can park there
2126.  Peeling off all our layers, settling in for dinner, and pondering the menu
2127.  Us all deciding on chowder--it *is* a chowder house after all--and the waitress answering all our questions so cheerfully.
2128.  Sipping tea and telling stories across the table while we wait for our food
2129.  My sampler plate arriving at last--all five kinds of chowder!


2130.  Tasting chowders one at a time, deciding on a favorite and then changing my mind
2131.  That basket of bread that keeps getting refilled
2132.  Mom dropping her glasses in her soup--really?!--and us all laughing while she tries to wipe them clean
2133.  Leaving the restaurant happy and full--but still walking around the corner to the cupcake place.
2134.  Picking out the snickerdoodle cupcake because it's got the tiniest heart nestled right on top and I can't pass it by


2135.  The three of us settled on the couch in the corner, sampling cupcakes and sipping eggnog steamers
2136.  Taking the heart off the cupcake and setting it atop the eggnog foam
2137.  How the heart gets swallowed right up and we all joke that I've lost my heart
2138.  Last sip of eggnog revealing my heart right there on the bottom of the cup


2139.  How God's teaching me again and again that what feels like loss and heartache (a lost heart) might just reveal the greatest beauty of all
2140.  Climbing back in the car for the last event of the night.
2141.  Cousin driving us to a neighborhood we've never seen, all these houses decked out in lights
2142.  Driving up one street and down another real slow, pointing out all the beauty
2143.  That one house towards the end, three enormous letters filling the front window:  J O Y
2144.  How the Joy Dare of 2012 is completed right here in the midst of this week filled to the brim with Joy
2145.  The way God keep teaching as long as I keep counting.
2146.  Day 4 of the birthday week coming to an end, me so full of happiness and hope.

FRIDAY
2147.  Day 5 of the birthday week and that funny email I get from a friend, her asking me to bring doilies with me to our lunch date
2148.  Me digging through Mom's bins in the basement after work, in search of doilies
2149.  Welcome hugs at my friend's house, her telling me that the doilies are for a "project"
2150.  Homemade chicken curry pot pie coming out of the oven
2151.  Us enjoying a cup of tea before lunch
2152.  Sitting down to a delicious meal, Baby Cora "talking" to us while we eat
2153.  My friend revealing the mysterious project at last and me a little giddy with excitement
2154.  Rolling out porcelain clay until it's smooth and flat
2155.  Pressing pieces of crocheted lace right into the porcelain, us thinking we know what it's going to look like in the end


2156.  Holding our breath a bit while we peel up the lace, reveal beauty we never saw coming


2157.  How we're both learning it right here that the beauty of lace is only revealed after it's been pressed down hard into the ground


2158.  Life lessons learned in the kitchen beside a sister-friend, us marveling and pondering together
2159.  Heading out to our next adventure, Baby Cora in tow
2160.  Making good time on the roads and finding a parking place nearby
2161.  Walking up the path to the Bellevue Botanical Gardens with all these glorious lights on display, us already oohing and ahhing over the beauty


2162.  Wandering a whole garden made of lights on a cold, cold evening in December
2163.  Us taking turns guessing the types of flowers, ever single bloom made out of lights


2164.  How beauty can light up a whole night of darkness
2165.  Warming up with a cup of hot cider held in the hands
2166.  Going through the garden a second time, because really, how could once be enough?
2167.  Heading back to the house for hot soup and cake
2168.  Friend and her husband singing happy birthday to me, that one candle flickering bright and Baby Cora just watching us all
2169.  Early Christmas present opened, those home-canned peaches and that jar of chai mix weighing the bag right down
2170.  My beautiful curly-haired friend and her new baby and her incredibly kind husband--and me welcomed right into this life

SATURDAY
2171.  Day 6 of the birthday week--my actual birthday here at last!
2172.  Mom the first to wish me happy birthday, her hair still asunder from sleep
2173.  Enough work to fill the whole shift--on a Saturday.  Gift, Gift, Gift!
2174.  Dad and me pouring over the Snappy Dragon menu, picking out the birthday dinner (takeout Chinese!)
2175.  Dad making cranberry-apple cobbler and the way it fills the whole house with this delicious scent


2176.  All these friends writing birthday messages on my Facebook wall, me having a hard time keeping up
2177.  That package that comes in the mail and me completely taken by surprise
2178.  Butterfly wrapping paper adorning the gift inside, a telltale sign of the one who sent it
2179.  Tearing off the paper because I can't wait any longer, book of crochet patterns nestled inside
2180.  For friends I've never met
2181.  And how they become dear companions on the long road, no matter how many miles separate us
2182.  For the God Who lets us find each other in the most unlikely ways and binds our hearts in the way only He can
2183.  Sitting down to the birthday dinner, Chinese takeout covering the table
2184.  Good food and family to share it with
2185.  Movie night at home to finish off the birthday week
2186.  Blowing out candles after the traditional off-tune, out-of-sync rendition of Happy Birthday by my family



2187.  Eating cobbler and ice cream, fighting off the kitties who want to lick the bowl
2188.  Handmade scarves from Mom, in purple of course
2189.  That enormous package that appears on the table at the end of the night, covered in purple pansies
2190.  New griddle that will actually *cook* pancakes, not just burn them or leave them pale
2191.  For 31 years
2192.  For finally figuring out how to celebrate life in a way that honors the person God's created me to be
2193.  God never giving up on me, always stretching and pulling and turning me right into something else--someone else--the someone He always knew I could be
2194.  For growth
2195.  But mostly for God

6 comments:

  1. So much beauty, food, laughter, friendship, and family in a single post! No wonder you were worn out by the end. I'm thankful with you for all that love and joy (and work!). May the year ahead be marked by great joy, healing, and confidence in God's love.

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    1. @tinuviel: Yes, "worn out" would be an understatement! Ah, but the cost was definitely worth it. I suppose that holds true for so much of the abundant life--it doesn't come easy, but oh, it's worth it! And your blessing for the new year? Thank you. Just, thank you. Sending love and grace and more than a few hugs across the miles, Friend. So glad to know you and call you Friend.

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  2. sounds like a splendid "birthweek"... so much on your gratitude list is an answer to my prayers--especially "me so full of happiness and hope"!

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    1. @chris: Thank you, my friend across the world. Your prayers are deeply cherished gifts here. It was most definitely a splendid week, one that I will joyfully relive all the rest of this coming year. Praying for His Presence to invade every day of the new year and draw you ever deeper into His love.

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  3. your week sounds even better in bullet-points...

    so blessed that you have the gift to use words so well that we can join right into your fullness and Joy.

    He truly is amazing and so are you dear one.

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    1. @Rachel Schober: Ha! Yes, I think so, too. I was laughing and smiling to myself as I was typing up the whole huge list of joy moments from that one week of life. I think it's easier to savor life that way, breaking it down into all these little bits of Hope and Grace and Him. And *I* am so blessed to have you by my side, no matter if the days bring joy or sorrow. So thankful for you, Dearest Friend.

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