Thursday, July 2, 2009

Blessed

The last two months have been long, hard, and nearly unbearable. The overwhelming physical demands of moving combined with the emotional devastation of relationship conflict have made this one of the most difficult experiences of my life. And for those of you who have known me for awhile, you know that's saying a lot. There were many days when I wanted to give up, and I am deeply grateful for every friend and family member who came alongside me and walked me through this. Some of you lent your physical strength for the hours and hours of packing boxes, hauling furniture, and cleaning up the house. Some of you lent me your ears as I poured out my hurt, my anger, and my brokenness. Some of you lent me your wisdom and spiritual insight as I struggled to extend grace, to seek reconciliation, to find truth in the midst of lies. Some of you just grabbed my hand and pulled me forward when everything within me wanted to turn and run. And some of you did all these things at the same time. While this has been one of the most difficult seasons of my life, it has also opened my eyes to see how blessed I am to be surrounded by people who love me when I am broken, who stand by me when I am attacked, who give of themselves when I am in need, who make me laugh when nothing is funny, and who give me hope when I cannot find it for myself. Yes, God has blessed me greatly, and I am humbled by His goodness. I can't say for sure that the worst is over, but as the dust begins to settle from all the happenings of these past couple months, I am finding a little room to breathe. And oh how grateful I am for this! There is so much I want to share with you, so many things I want to process and hold up to the Light. I am looking forward to doing more of that in the days and weeks ahead, but for now, I just want you to know how grateful I am for all of you. This has been one tough stretch of road, but you have never wavered in your support and I am forever in your debt. It is the most glorious feeling to know that regardless of what the future holds, I do not face it alone. May our God bless you beyond anything you have ever known for all the love you have shown me.

1 comment:

  1. It's been a privilege to go through it with you and see how strong and wise God has made you. I've learned a lot from you during this time. Here's hoping you have an easier road ahead.

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